I'm in a place where I know what I want, almost exactly, but I'm not quite sure how to get there.
When I say I know what I want, I mean life, love, career, pursuit of happiness, et cetera et cetera... I know a lot of people in their twenty-something years have no clue. But I think I've been so on-purpose with figuring this shit out that it's kind of overwhelming to know at this point.
You'd think a p'lair would be relieved.
I see the outcome so vivid; it's my reoccurring Technicolor daydream. But in the present reality, I sometimes get discouraged by not knowing how to start. There are so many people that say "just do it" a la footwear taglines but where? How? How much does that cost?
I know the real fact of the matter of course all boils down to my own flaws that I need to get a hold of. Mainly motivating myself & re-learning the art of discipline.
"You have not because you ask not."
And I honestly used to pray about these things frequently. And maybe, just maybe, that's where the real answer lies. It all comes full circle.
As I write, I know exactly what I should be doing. The hard part (read: not very hard at all) is actually doing it.
I'm my own worse enemy.